Stress, Work and Food - Part 2

OK... finish the darn page liao... Now a little free for a while. The page layout was really tough, but somehow you don't feel all stressed out or frustrated at it anymore once it's done. Whew... sure wanna see that one in print. It'll be on Tuesday.

There were a few funny talks around the office. So we had a lotta laughs... and some are well, too provocative to put here. me, Angi, Val were all laughs today, despite the apparent stress levels. hehe... been clubbing a lot recently too... so we're a really funny group. haha... some feng-shui master also came into the office to give some honorable advice. :-p Jessie and him were discussing a lotta matters, but i'm not sure what...

Hmm... what else... still continuing eating day... shared the wanton mee just now, and Jessie bought us some really delicious cakes (a little too rich though). chanel handbags tried half of the American cheesecake. Wow... was real good. The other half was given to Val. Angi had one (1) whole Chocolate cheesecake. I was like... wow. haha... She looked rather full after that. Ray took a Tiramisu, looked nice too... Everyone seemed to have had a really yummy time.

Okay la, I think I'm stopping here for the day, two entries for one day? Woo... And I'm contemplating ending the song of the day thingy, maybe do it once in a while... Till next time then,

PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Stress, Work and Food - Part 1

What a day yesterday was... felt a lot of pressure, the last page for the day was a real pain, and I found myself struggling to fit stuff into the layout. There were 17 photos, all gadgets... and 17 descriptions to be fitted into the spread... Then came the problem. There were 14 photos. Yup, 14... And 17 descriptions! Where are the 3? And to make things worse, I couldn't tell the difference between the different gadgets in the 'A4Tech' brand category, cos there weren't any descriptions on the filenames. chanel handbags The 'Microsoft' and 'Logitech' brand categories were fine because the filenames were named appropriately... Then I brought the file home so that I could continue it, but guess what? The file contains certain elements that need additional plugins... The office has some particular plug ins... maybe for publication purposes. I was like 'NOOOO....'. So now I'm back in office doing this page... sigh.

One funny thing happened yesterday, Angi asked me whether can stop calling her Yar Lee... Haha... been calling her that too much I guess. She says she's more comfortable with just Angi. lol... oh well... Other than that it was mostly work work work...

Today is really food day... my mum bought some donuts to bring, as well as a tin can of biscuits... so the office can makan. Then there's wanton me I bought for Angi... and Val... and sifu... haha... Food day I guess...

Oh well... have to do my page now. Maybe I'll write more later... Asking Val and Angi on layout suggestions...

PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Rush Rush Rush... That's Called Work

Hmm... another day passes in my life... nothing much really, all work and not enough sleep. Slept kinda late the night before, because I was waiting for a full system scan on my house computer for adware and spyware. Ended about almost 3am in the morning... and I woke up at 6am in order to do some chores... so chanel handbags was looking real sleepy. Angi guessed right, she told me I looked like I didn't get enough rest, hehe... well, I did get some rest yesterday, but somehow I feel like it wasn't enough...

Anyways, did a couple of pages, and yeah, the darn tv guide. But I found a little trick that made it less of a hassle... Well, at least it was a bit of an improvement. There were some problems here and there in which we didn't know who the guest in the photo was, as we had to credit him or her in the captions... All in a day's work, I must say...

Brought some hailam mee from my usual coffee shop to work. Was pretty cheap, less than a dollar. Gave one to sifu, err... two actually, he was happy to recieve extra. haha... me and Angi shared the other two, just put it all in a bowl and microwaved it. Okla, but with the sambal was a lil better... Val brought her own food so she was ok, while Ray went out before I could say anything...

Was checking the usual forum at Italia Auto Club (http://www.italiaauto.com/) and suddenly some jarring-colored pages started to appear. It was all shades of pure red, green or yellow. OW!!! Apparently got hacked by some g00n.com or something... Hope it's ok today. Was seeking some help from Alfa sifus about my rollers...

Hmm... what else, bout my problem, lets just say i got someone to talk to, and it made me feel a little less stressed. I also find myself deciding my own paths to choose nowadays, and it's going to be a tricky journey I guess, as some actions are really risky. How I wished things would have been easier on me... But I admit God has cleared up a part of this path for me, and I'm just grateful for that. Now it's my chance to prove my faith and determination...

Song of the day:

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This romeo is bleeding
But you can’t see his blood
It’s nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up

It’s been raining since you left me
Now I’m drowning in the flood
You see I’ve always been a fighter
But without you I give up

Now I can’t sing a love song
Like the way it’s meant to be
Well, I guess I’m not that good anymore
But baby, that’s just me

And I will love you, baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you - always

Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I’d give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I’ve made mistakes, I’m just a man

When he holds you close, when he pulls you near
When he says the words you’ve been needing to hear
I’ll wish I was him ’cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time

Yeah, I will love you baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always

If you told me to cry for youI could
If you told me to die for youI would
Take a look at my face
There’s no price I won’t pay
To say these words to you

Well, there ain’t no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We’ll find a place where the sun still shines

And I will love you, baby - always
And I’ll be there forever and a day - always
I’ll be there till the stars don’t shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don’t rhyme
And I know when I die, you’ll be on my mind
And I’ll love you - always

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Always © Bon Jovi

Oh well, that's all for now I guess... Till next entry...
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Got My Comp Back, TRM Spotted...

It's been a few days since a post... Well, there was the problem of my computer at work being kaput. And Angi's one was not available either, so I couldn't use that. I used Val's comp for a short while, but not long enough to write an entry... :-p I guess everyone's busy because of the shotage of functional machines... Add the problem of my house net credit finishing, and I have no way to access the net! Anyways, I bought a new reload card, so everything's fine... for now.

My computer came back today, glad to have a fast computer again at last... It still has those sickening glitches over the network, but thankfully it's way better than the temporary cpu I got last week. Worked on 3 pages for the lifestyle section today, one was on a food review (looks rather yummy), and the other two on some beach fashion (bikinis and stuff...). Was kind of rushing for the 4pm deadline, chanel handbags but there was some work over the network lines and that halted our work a little... so the final submission was a lil late... anyways, there's quite a bit of work to do tomorrow. I have a page to do, the darn tv guide included! Angi has four pages, so I suspect she's gonna push some to me... wait, she IS going to push it to me, she told me before she went back today. Aikk...

Went to have the curry mee at a nearby stall... finally got there in time to order it. Was pretty good, I must say. It's located near Victoria Station near my office. On the day before, on the way to that stall, we passed a trailer parked beside the road. Two cars were reversing out of the trailer. As I looked closer, I saw it... it was a TRM! an black one, with the logo covered to avoid suspicion! And there was a semi-wrapped red one that was to be moved after that. Too bad I was driving, if not I would have snapped some pics... Hopefully a launch would commence soon...

Hmm... what else... I must say I've been having more personal prayers to the Lord recently. They are deeper nowadays, as I ask Him to help me in my current situation. I know there is possibility that I might be in the wrong, but I know what I'm intending to do I something I sincerely believe in doing. My heart tells me what I'm doing is based on what I feel, and that feeling is strong, and I'm not going to back down, I'm going to try, and try I will, may God guide me and help me in times of my need. Ameen~

No song of the day, because Internet Explorer screwed it up for me too many times liao. Next time maybe...

Well, that's all for today I guess... not that much else to say...
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

BoA Fever, and Feeling Empty at Times...

Okay, I now officially have BoA's songs ringing in my head... and I have Angi to thank for that. Well, she continued playing the same BoA CD at work, now even Allan's humming along to 'My Prayer'. Which isn't a bad thing, BoA's songs are nice... lol. Yesterday it was playing the whole day, and today too. hee hee...

My comp went kaput today at work. And to make matters worse, Angi's one went kaput at the exact same time. So we have two computers hanging and paused at system startup... And this is the second time this happened. The last one was a few weeks back, chanel handbags both mine and Angi's rosak at the same time too. Dunno whether they are connected or not, since it seems to affect both our systems, and no other computer in the office had any problems... haiyo. Well, I'm getting a temporary cpu for the moment from another comp, and Angi has to either share with me or borrow Val's.

There were a lotta work the day before but not that much today, since it was a Saturday. But yesterday we had to do three articles, one on speakers, while the other two were coffee places and one on fitness. Ray got the speaker one, which looked rather fun. I was to do the coffee one, and I was quite glad too, but since Angi seemed sad at the fitness page, I asked for a swap. Hahaha... what happened next was hilarious. The model for the workout was a new dude, a real hairy guy, nicknamed the 'Gorilla' by our Lifestyle editor Imran. It was a real pain to edge out and make him look good... wah~ and Angi was cringing just by looking at the fella flexing his muscles. haha.... After I finished the page, I went out for lunch, but as I got back Imran was aiming at me with his gun (toy gun, that is) telling me the text was wrong... aikk... my mistake, I slotted in some old text into the layout. Mustn't do that again...

Today other than one page, there wasn't much to do. Tony, our chief editor, belanja us Kentucky Fried Chicken. Well, I drove to the nearby KFC at Ampang Park while Hussin (fellow collegue, writer) went down and bought the food. And it was really nice! Tried the Curry Crunch today, was rather nice. Poor Ray, if he hadn't gone back early he could have joined in the feast. Angi refused to eat, saying she had a bad feeling in the stomach. Well, dunno what it was but later in the day I had it too. Maybe was the nasi lemak we had for breakfast... :-p Angi said it was just because I ate too much KFC... ha? donno lor...

Well, later I chatted with her bout this racial thingy. Well, to be honest, there are many times I wished I wasn't a mix. Times I wish I could blend in more... Times I just wished I was a pure Chinese, and learned to speak. sigh... nothing can be done about the former, it's already a fact. There comes times when I wish people would look at me like any other Chinese guy, not judging just by my name, not by look. But God created me this way, and there must be a reason, right? As for speaking, well, it IS learnable. Only took one lesson from Boon Boon last time. Hopefully one day Angi can teach me too... hehe... some things to ponder upon...

Oh yeah, and we were talking bout our salary and how we feel under-paid. Well, we can't really say much, being just junior graphic designers... but what worries me is her feeling that she should find someplace else that pays higher. Well, of course I don't wish that to happen, at least not that soon la... Will have to research more and find a way to help ourselves in this situation. She currently does freelance at the same time, to get extra income. Needs the money, she says, adding to her financial burdens are her piano lessons. Well, the only thing I could think of at the moment was helping her out financially, but she doesn't want it. She prefers to have things done by herself, independently. That's a really good trait, I should make that an example for my future financial state. We're not really getting a proper arrangement about out OT, and we're working an average of 2 extra hours daily, not to mention Saturdays, which we only need to come twice a month. Currently we come EVERY Saturday. sigh... maybe when Val comes back we'd be able to lessen up the work and overtime? We'll just have to wait and see, and I HAVE to sort this out asap.

Hmm... what else. Went to Borders at Times Square. And apparently today was the Grand Opening. Well, what I can say that it is one heck of a huge bookstore. But the crowd was rather heavy and noisy. So not really a good time to go searching for books. Maybe next time...
And I've been feeling rather weird recently. Seems like things are a little odd. Things I like to do don't seem that interesting anymore. Dunno what this feeling is all about. The food I normally use to want seem to have lost their attraction. Interest in watching animes or DVDs have gone down dramatically. sigh... dunno la... Even a walk at Times Square, which I like very much, doesn't seem that nice anymore...

Been praying the day before, just before I went to bed. I'm sort of at a crossroads in my faith and relationship with God. I prayed for His guidance, for Him to show me what's right and wrong, and for Him to help me face what might come soon. As I can feel there will be a time soon, in which I'll make big and risky decisions... And I tell God I do not want to go into a pitfall, I wish for what I achieve to do to go as smoothly as possible, as I am as clear and careful in what I'm doing than I've ever been... May He guide me, for I know God loves me, and does to all of you too.

Anyway, till next entry I suppose... no song of the day today, maybe next time...
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

My Alpine CDM-9801... been listening to hitz.fm a lot recently. Enjoying the daily prank calls... hehehe  

From left to right: Val working... happier days /// Me and Angi, I know she hates this pic, she says her arm looks fat or something. No right? /// Ray and Me, He's checking SMSes... /// Adri - the new fella /// Me and Angi's computers kaput. Damn~  

Holiday-Work and Eat Day

Well, another day passes, and more things happen in my life. Not really one of my better days, Thursday was a mixed-emotion day. Well, for starters, we ALL had to come on a public holiday. Well, I don't personally mind, for some reasons... :-p But still, I hope there's OT for this... It was a real tough day at work, with all the rush for the deadline for printing. There were 16 pages to do, and I must say we did quite well. chanel handbags Allan and Harris were the usual sifus, making their pages as fast as lightning. Me, Angi and Ray did the remaining, and did quite well, covering each other's changes. There were a few tough pages as usual, but that's working life. There was an article on the National Sports Complex that was a pain. But I'm glad it's over. hehehe...

Brought the Bug today... the car runs like a dream... and the traffic's clear, so it was really nice :-D Lots of room to run and cruise. There was one Satria that didn't wanna give way later in the day, and kept going faster and faster... I guess the fella must be also wondering why isn't this green Beetle giving up at 135kmh... lol. But I turned away later of course. Had to make a turn. Man I love this car...

Brought some mee hoon for me and for Angi's lunch. Was a first-time buying thing, so I didn't know what to expect. It was pretty good, and she liked it too. Maybe I can buy it in the future. The usual coffeeshops were closed as it was a public holiday. Even the usual Tanglin wanton mee was closed... I was going to get mee hoon from there. Oh well, that's lunch... hehe. And our CEO Jessie bought us some Delifrance stuff... woo, she's such a sweet girl... And there was spaghetti and fetucchini for dinner, my mum made. I was like oh boy oh boy... today was really an eating day... better work out more... :-p My diet IS going to work, and I'm making sure of that.

I was actually not in the mood for much talk that night, made worse by some darn sad songs on the way home. I was all gloomy for some lame reasons. But I messaged Boon Boon that night, and she said I can call her if I had any problems. I just called, and told everything... Well, I'm so grateful for the advice and motivation she gave me. It made me feel so much better... Lets just say it calmed me down a lot. I must now face the coming days with confidence and determination. I tell myself, I'll make it, I pray to God to help me, and I do hope I'll achieve what I try hard to...

Val said she'd be back on Monday... yay, at least there will be less pressure to finish by deadline... I'm so glad Angi's well too. To see her usual smile again simply makes my day... But she still hasn't gotten over her listening to BoA CD... in fact she's listening to it right now... :-p

Oh well, better conclude this entry before work comes in... now we're just having a little break before things come in. Our CEO's just popping in and out to check us up... :-p

Song of the day:

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From the moment you looked at me
And ever since you called my name
You've been everything that I've seen
And now I'm caught up in this game

My mind is spinning round and around
There's something special I have found
And every time I close my eyes
All I can think of is you and me
Oh baby can't you see

That everything you do
Everything that you do
Makes me wanna go...
Everything you say
Everything that you say
Makes me wanna go...

They're trying to build a fence
By saying that this won't last
And they tell me I don't have a chance
That everything moves too fast

But every time I close my eyes
All I can think of is you and me
Oh baby can't you see

CHORUS 2X

That everything you do
Everything...Everything you do
Everything you do
Everything you say
Everything that you say

CHORUS 3X

Everything You Do © M2M

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That's all for today,
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

It's alright... It'll be okay soon...

Days are so tough, work is so tough, life is so tough... Well, welcome to a day of my life. Work has doubled the last few days, mainly due to the increased pages and running on a shortage of staff... But I keep on, as I know that I can handle it. Have to keep my will and faith strong. I tell myself I can do this, in work, and in... life. Designed quite a lotta pages today, and some were quite a pain, due to the contents. But managable, nevertheless. Also designed an ad for hitz.fm, chanel handbags which was for some contest to win tickets to watch the FA Cup Finals... was a real pain too, but I had sifu Allan's guidance, and Farah of course... Sigh, when can I be as independant as Val?... I'm still learning, and well, experience is gathered along the way... Poor Val's ok now, but needs to wait till the spots go away...

Tomorrow's a working day, despite being a public holiday... aaarrrggghhh! What to do, a presshas to print on time, so we're working overtime... Now they're introducing some shiftbased system for work... not too sure bout the way it works yet, but hope to do so, soon...

Angi's back in work, but looked so pale and weak... She could hardly talk or do work, but she came in order to help do the pages. I admire her for her determination, but I was so worried about her being weak and so... She said she felt dizzy, and wanted to get this odd feeling off her throat... I have never felt so helpless before, unable to help... I mean, I'd do anything to make her feel better, but I just didn't know what to do, but just to advise... But I guess in such a situation advice is good enough. I told her not to stress herself, take it easy... drink more water and rest as soon as she gets home. I even asked her to go home early, but she was reluctant... wat to do, if she wasn't stubborn she wouldn't be Angi... hee hee. She's quite different today, quiet, and listening to my BoA CD... Hope she recovers soon...

What else ar... hmm... my mum bought me back some sping rolls from Muhibbah. It's a cool restaurant. When I was a small boy, it was only a little stall. But then they received news about an apartment that was going to be built where they were, and they bought a neightbouring shophouse. And I must say it must be the smartest move to do. All, and I mean ALL the other stalls, had to be shut down to make way for the apartment. They have been successful eversince, and went and bought another shophouse, and another! Now they consist of 3 shophouses (double storey) and one is used for the kitchen alone... And did you now this is a truecollaboration business. The name speaks for itself. Muhibbah, means something like living in harmony among races and faiths. The two stall owners consist of a Chinese towkay and a Malay. They are now the big bosses... cool and real-life success story... You guys should try it someday... it's basically a Chinese restaurant with a slight twist. Not to mention the nicest spring rolls on the planet... :-D

Song of the day:
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Before I fall asleep, I pray for a while
With a sincere heart of hoping that I will earn the wisdom of forgetting you

So that my aching heart from our separation will not be a burden to the next person,
Give me a heart to forgive the person who gave me this wound

I am a weak and selfish person but tell me in a soft voice (just let it go)
I hear you now...

It's all right, it's ok.
Its only for a while, the pain will disappear
Even if my heart crumbles, it will always be a good memory

Whenever I'm lonely and having a hard time
Bless those who comfort me

Make those who tried to pry us apart realize (just let it go)
I hear you now...

I am a weak and selfish person but tell me in a soft voice (just let it go)
I hear you now...

I pray like this to get over you
It's not that I don't like you anymore
I'm doing this because this pain might never end (can't let it go)

It's all right even if you leave, even if you meet new people
If my heart crumbles, please give me a new one
This is My Prayer

My Prayer (translated) © BoA
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That's all for now... till next entry then...
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Tough Times and Worries...

Yesterday was one heck of a day. Toughest day yet at work, but I'm very sure that there's more to come. the 40-page version of the newspaper is out today, and the stress and pressure to finish it in time was something to behold. But I made it. Glad to say I made it. Val was absent, as well as Angi. So had to add their work too among mine. Well, Allan was quite quick in doing what he does best, so we all were rushing towards the end of the deadline. chanel handbags had to do Angi's dreaded TV Guide (don't we all just hate it?), as well as What's Up and a number of pages that required frequent changes. It was really tough, but somehow fun in a certain way. There was a new guy at work too, a friend of my friend (say that again?). Quite friendly fellow, hope we can all work together for the paper.

Angi messaged me this morning. She's not well, so she's unable to come today too. I called her right away. She sounded so ill, weak. Had some stomach problem, probably related to her medication. Hope that anyone reading this can help pray for her recovery, because as you can tell, I'm very worried bout her right now. I told her to rest and don't worry about a thing (pretty similar to what I said to Val, come to think about it), as I'll take care of everything. And to think i even brought her lunch :-p Well, just hope everything would be fine. I'm thankful to the Lord that my flu yesterday hasmostly gone away. Must take care of myself now, as people are getting sick, especially those in the office. Val's still at home, but her chicken pox still hasn't gone away. Will pray for her too.

Hmm... what else... Oh yeah, there was a big storm yesterday. But knowing me, I like driving in the rain. It's a refreshing change, and fun to see the silicone wipers in action. Not to mention the washing it gives to the car. But need to take note about my tyres. There's not enough grooves, and might need to be changed soon. But i need to save up in order to get the 17-inchers I long for. So it's a split decision: Change now, get new rubber. Or wait until I can afford the rims, so that I can change the rims AS WELL as the rubber. Because my current rollers are puny 14-inchers. But they're pretty neat, with their hidden gauge and teardrop design. Not to mention the Alfa 156 hubcaps that have been retrofitted onto them. Costed quite a bit. Hope to transfer them to the new rollers, when the time comes that is...

Song of the day:

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She was my once in a lifetime
Happy ending come true
Oh I guess I should have told her
But I thought she knew

She said I took her for granted
Last thing I would do
Oh I'll never understand it
'Cause I thought she knew

I thought she knew
My world revolved around her
My love light burns for her alone
But she couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known
I should have known

A heart full of words left unspoken
Now that we're through
I'd sell my soul to have this silence broken
Oh I thought she knew
I thought she knew

I thought she knew
My world revolved around her
My love light burns for her alone
But she couldn't see the flame
Only myself to blame
I should have known
I should have known

She was my once in a lifetime
Happy ending come true
Oh I guess I should have told her
But I thought she knew
I thought she knew
I thought she knew
I thought she knew
I thought she knew
I thought she knew

Whoa....
Oh I thought that she knew
Yeah oooooooo....

I Thought She Knew © N Sync

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That's all for now. Till next time then...
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Star Wars Episode III : Revenge of the Sith 

40-Page Blues...

Well well... working life sure is tough. The rush during the last few days was really tiring. Tomorrow's the launch of the new 40-page version of Malaysian Today, so you can expect today'd be a real rush. Poor Val's still not back yet, so I'm praying she'll recover soon from her chicken pox. And now poor Angi's not well too, catching a fever on Saturday. Poor thing... she was complaining of being cold that day, and later in the day she went taking photos for her freelance job, chanel handbags and I heard she got caught in the rain too. So now she has a temperature. On m.c. today... Which is bad news for me and Ray... :-O Hope we can help pray dat she gets well soon too... It's just not the same without her around. I'll have to work double to tripply hard today, to make up for the lack of manpower...

Watched the full version of Star Wars Episode III's trailer, and I must say it rocks! It's soooo cool, and there's tons of effects and story developments, as well as rise of the Galactic Empire... :-D Reminds me of Return of the King, in which they saved the best for last... lets hope this will be a fitting bridge to the 2 trilogies...

Song of the day:

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No new years’s day
To celebrate
No chocolate covered candy hearts to give away
No first of spring
No song to sing
In fact here’s just another ordinary day
No april rain
No flowers bloom
No wedding saturday within the month of june
But what it isIs something true
Made up of these three words that I must say to you

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

No summer’s high
No warm july
No harvest moon to light one tender august night
No autumn breeze
No falling leaves
No even time for birds to fly to southern skies
No libra sun
No halloween
No giving thanks to all the christmas joy you bring
But what it is
Though old so new
To fill your heart like no three words could ever do.

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart.

I just called to say I love you
I just called to say how much I care
I just called to say I love you
And I mean it from the bottom of my heart

Of my heart
Of my heart

I Just Called to Say I Love You © Stevie Wonder

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That's all for today I guess... gtg, there's work to do... Thanks for reading,
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Work life is really tough and tiring...

Wow, days at work have become really tough and tiring... I'm doing more serious work now, and the pressure's building up. There's deadlines, additional work and my own personal problems to add. Deadlines are tougher now, as we are now doing the first of the expanded 32-page version of Malaysian Today. And I tell you it's no easy task. And to make matters tricky, poor Val got chicken pox. Poor girl... I pray that she'll recover soon. Sad to see such a hardworking nice girl get hit by such an illness. Well, work has doubled for us as a result, but I told Val we'll make it. So that she'd not worry... nothing's worse than being ill and worried, right? Anyways, I did a number of pages in just a day, including a tough feature page on some violent martial arts entertainment thingy... And there's a SUPER TOUGH page on 'What you can do with RM50'. It's an interesting article, but it was real hell to do the layout. In fact, I'm not fully done. I'm to go early tomorrow morning to work, and finish it before 10.30am. And I'm all dry of ideas... maybe it's due to continuous work... But I'll try my best. I also tried to help Angi too, cause she looked really stressed recently. I'm not too sure what's in her mind, but it hurts me to see her stressed out like that. So I hope I can lessen her burden and help as much as I can. Oh, and she bought me nasi lemak for lunch... was real good ;-p As for my personal problem, lets just say it's like continuing to walk, even though there's a wall in front of me, shooting knives endlessly. But I keep on walking to that wall,chanel handbags for I know there's a bed of roses on the other side. And I bear in mind that roses are not all beauty and elegance, it has thorns and will wear if not taken care of. Something like that... But I keep on going... and hope that there's a way to the other side...

What else ar, hmm... oh, got some souveniers from Jessie, our boss. She gave me a Malaysian Today pen, t-shirt and mug (a real cool one in a shape of a football). Yay!

Song of the day:
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Broken this fragile thing now
And I can't, I can't pick up the pieces
And I've thrown my words all around
But I can't, I can't give you a reason

I feel so broken up (so broken up)
And I give up (I give up)
I just want to tell you so you know

(Chorus)Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only, my only one

Made my mistakes, let you down
And I can't, I can't hold on for too long
Ran my whole life in the ground
And I can't, I can't get up when you're gone

And something's breaking up (breaking up)
I feel like giving up (like giving up)
I won't walk out until you know

(Chorus)Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one
I let go, there's just no one that gets me like you do
You are my only my only one

(Interlude)
Here I go...so dishonestly leave a note for you my only one
And I know...you can see right through me
So let me go...and you will find some one

Here I go, scream my lungs out and try get to you
You are my only one I let go, there's just no one...no one like you
You are my only my only oneMy only one(x3)
You are my only my only one!
--
The Only One © Yellowcard

That's all for now, thanks for reading.
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Cram, Rush, Save, Burn...

Hmmm... life goes on as usual for me. Been pretty hectic recently, with work getting tougher and more challenging. There was some rain today, which resulted in an abnormal traffic jam. Well, thank God for silicone wipers.... hehe. Rather fun to watch, and takes some stress away. Today I did the dreaded TV Guide... something Angi does normally, and I can see it causes her to get red eyes. I did promise her I'd do it once I know how to, but I'd never guess the time is now... woo, man it was tough! I got red eyes too... haha. But kinda interesting to have a challenge once in a while. chanel handbags At times I wonder how Val can cope... I hope to be like her one day, can tahan lasak. When there aren't pages to do, I'd be browsing http://www.carspyshots.net/, checking out the latest news in the auto industry... hehe... or chatting with friends who're not busy.

Been on an emotional rollercoaster recently. I dun like it, but what am I to do? Sigh... I'll have to be strong, and face it... I dun know how to face it, but I'll learn somehow. I'm not going to be like before, I'm going to toughen up, face the challenge. And I pray that God will guide and help me...

Hmm... what else... I've read through issue 3 of A.I. Love You... Pretty funny, can't wait to know wat happens next. And I found Negima! no. 5. Joy... Just starting to read... Star Wars fever is in too, and I simply can't wait for Revenge of the Sith. Most lightsaber duels ever? Oh boy... And I'm planning to watch Samara soon too... hehe... K la, I'm not gonna bore you with my nonsense...

Song of the day:

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I can’t fight this feeling any longer
And yet I’m still afraid to let it flow
What started out as friendship, has grown stronger
I only wish I had the strength to let it show

I tell myself that I can’t hold out forever
I said there is no reason for my fear
Cause I feel so secure when we’re together
You give my life direction
You make everything so clear

And even as I wander
I’m keeping you in sight
You’re a candle in the window
On a cold, dark winter’s night
And I’m getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
It’s time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever

Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crashing through your door
Baby, I can’t fight this feeling anymore

My life has been such a whirlwind since I saw you
I’ve been running round in circles in my mind
And it always seems that I’m following you, girl
Cause you take me to the places that alone I’d never find

And even as I wander I’m keeping you in sight
You’re a candle in the window on a cold, dark winter’s night
And I’m getting closer than I ever thought I might

And I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
It’s time to bring this ship into the shore
And throw away the oars, forever

Cause I can’t fight this feeling anymore
I’ve forgotten what I started fighting for
And if I have to crawl upon the floor
Come crushing through your door
Baby, I can’t fight this feeling anymore

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Can't Fight This Feeling © Reo Speedwagon

That's all for now, thanks for reading,
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Sun after a Rainy Day...

Busy day at work as usual today... Starting to feel the pressure, there was a page that was a real headache. There was not much space, there was an ad, a big photo and 3 articles (long ones!). Took quite a while to compile them, and I admire how Val can easily think of a way to arrange it... :-p She said I gave up too quickly... hmm... still junior lei... She's really good at it. But I hope to learn fast, and I have to. When the paper reaches 32-page mode, things are gonna get hectic... We'll have to work double-hard when that time comes. Oh, and Angi looked really tired today. She said she didn't get enough sleep. Actually I'm rather worried for her, louis vuitton handbags offered to help her in her work, but she told me it's okay. Hmm.... wish I could do more... :-/ Oh yeah, and she came out in Female magazine this month... (I'm doing free publicity for you ar, Angi!) Now like a superstar liao. Hee hee...

Brought my Beetle to work today, first time, because our Lifestyle editor wanted to see it. He said he might be interested in buying it... Well, I was thinking, just give it a try. I love my Bug a lot, but if I'm going to sell it, I have to make sure the buyer would take good care of it... But he just managed to take a look of the exterior. He was kinda busy, so didn't get to see the 1600cc Boxer unit under the hood. Maybe next time, cos I need to repair some electricals...

Emotionally, I'm a little better now. I've decided to face my fears and be confident. I have to be more independant, and I'm doing my best to be a better person. Sometimes I wonder whether people notice, but it might also mean that I'm not improving enough. I know my feelings loud and clear, so I'm sticking to it, and hope God guides me. I can't really tell what I mean, but sometimes I wish I could... maybe someday... yeah... Learned a few things today, taking note, and well, just staying hopeful... Let's just say this sort of brightened up my day a little...

Song of the day:

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Day after day time pass away
And i just cant get you off my mind
Nobody knows i hide it inside
I keep on searching but i cant find
The courage to show, to letting u know
I've never felt so much in love before
And once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out

(chorus)
But if I let u go I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me
Will I ever see you smiling back at me (oh yeah) ?
How will I know if I let you go?

Night after night i hear my self say
Why cant this fewling just fade away?
These no one like you (no one like you)
You speak to my heart (speak to my heart)
Its such a shame we're worlds apart
Im to shy to ask, im to proud to lose
But sooner or later i've got to choose
And once again im thinking about
Taking the easy way out

(repeat chorus)

Once again I'm thinking about
Taking the easy way out
But if I let u go (oh) I will never know
What my life would be holding you close to me (close to me)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me (oh yeah) ?
How will I know if I let you go ?
But if I let you go I will never know (oh baby)
Will I ever see you smiling back at me (oh yeah)?
How will I know if I let you go

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If I Let You Go © Westlife

Oh well, that's all for today, hope I didn't talk too much. Till next time,
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Crash and Burn...

Well well well... my life's been pretty busy the last few days. The company's latest issue came out, and I was really excited because that was a first issue for me. Soon it was time to work on the next issue. However, today there was some sort of bad smell at the office, like burning rubber or smoke. It turns out that something somewhere is burning, so the whole office's electricity supply was shut down. It was pretty dark, and I had Angi to thank for a horror story (hee hee) and lotsa chat. Shutdown was 2 hours and we ended up going to Great Eastern mall for lunch. Joined Val for such a value-for-money meal. It was a slice of pizza (a BIG slice) for RM2.80. Can you believe it? Was really filling... hehe... Did some simple shopping for office supplies (that means food) and soon went back. The electricity was on as soon as we got back, and we resumed working till later in the evening, where there was another shutdown of half an hour. chanel handbags But eventually we were allowed to go home as our part was done. Miss Jessie (our boss and CEO) was willing to belanja us dinner if we stayed... It was really nice of her. I know the next day's gonna be a bit of a rush, as we have to compile for Friday's issue by the end of the day...

Hmm... as for the rest of my life, it's pretty much the same. I might
look really happy and smile most of the time, but deep inside, my
problem haunts me, hurting me deeply into confusion. But all I can do
is to hide it all and pretend nothing's wrong. Don't get me wrong, I
had lots of great times with my friends and office collegues, but a
problem's a problem, and as long as it remains there, I'll continue
this silent suffering. I'm just too scared and worried about telling it
to someone else, so at most times, I wonder who can I trust to speak
to... :-(

Song of the day:

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Baby listen to me
If I had the chance,
I'd say the words.
C'mon

The bluest of blue
That's what her eyes are
That's what I am today
And if I had it all to do all over again
I wouldn't have waited so long to say
I can't live without you
Don't want nobody else
Baby listen very closely
I love you

I couldn't lie
She couldn't wait
I love you came too late
I'd give my life for yesterday
I love you came too late

I should have seen the signs
Paid more attention
But I pushed her love away
I pushed your love away
So she found someone to give her what she needed
Somebody else
Somebody else not afraid to say
Not afraid to say

I can't live without you
Don't want nobody else
Baby listen very closely
I love you

I couldn't lie
I couldn't lie
She couldn't wait
She couldn't wait for me
I love you came too late
I'd give my life for yesterday
I love you came too late

I can't live without you
Don't want nobody else
My heart is in my hand
Took a good look at myself
If I had another chance
I'd shout it out to you the words
I love you

I couldn't lie
She couldn't wait
I love you came too late
I'd give my life for yesterday
I love you came too late
I couldn't lie
She couldn't wait
I love you came too late
I'd give my life for yesterday
I love you came too late

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I Love You Came Too Late © Joey McIntyre

That's all for today, thanks for reading, to those who are reading,
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

Bakuretsu Tenshi

These are screenshots from Bakuretsu Tenshi... Since work started, I haven't been able to watch any episodes of this DVD... From the left is Meg, Jo, Jango (the cybot) and some people who are trying to capture photos with their cellphones. Cari pasal if you ask me... hee hee...

Farewell, Pope

Well, everyone's probably talking bout it right now. Pope John Paul II has just passed away on the night of Saturday. Peace be upon him and may God have blessings to him for his good deeds and spreading of peace. I admire that he was even able to forgive a person who tried to asassinate him. Well, I'm also glad the person asked for forgiveness. Mutual understanding, respect for each other and tolerance are what we need in this world. It's non-deniable that he was an admirable individual, whom I wonder who will be his successor. I was watching Formula 1 on Sunday, chanel handbags and it was obvious that each driver or team had their way of expressing their thoughts. Ferrari used their black nose cone, something they last used in the September 11 attacks in the United States of America. It was their traditional way or mourning, and as an Italian team, I bet the loss was even deeper for them. Some drivers were even seen with the words "Thank You Pope" pasted on their helmets. Let's hope he finds eternal rest and finally meet the Lord, which he has been searching for all his life.

As for me, work's fine... It's starting to move faster now, but I'm okay with it. Did quite a number of page layouts today, and they were edited thoroughly, as I probably haven't did it as polished as those by Val or Angi... ;-p But anyway, there are always changes until the paper is actually printed, so I guess it's the norm of a newsprint. I'll just have to learn from mistakes, gain more knowledge and build up my skills... But overall, I still thank the Lord for this job. :-)

As for my little problem, let's just say I did talk to someone... it helped loosen the burden of keeping it to myself. He gave me some advice, and feel a little better. But no doubt the problem still lies there. I hope to overcome my problem, and may God guide and help me. Ameen.

Ok, that's all for now... till next entry,
PEACE and God Bless,

Aris Tee

New Lifestyle...

Well, I'm trying my best to adjust to working life. Hard to imagine that not long ago I was just an aimless unemployed individual. Now I'm trying my best to land a good impression at my workplace. I really thank God for letting me work in this company... The atmosphere's quite nice, the people I work with are really nice, and even though there's some pressure on doing layouts on time (though not really that bad on me yet, as I'm a newbie), I find joy in doing something I like. I tried my hand at some layouts, although since I'm still a beginner, my art director changes most of the things I do. I took note of the changes, so I can improve myself... The paper's due for Tuesday. And I just received news that Malaysian Today is planning to expand to 32 pages, which means more work for us... But it's progress for the company, so it's good :-p I have to design a logo too, chanel handbags titled "Pride and Passion". Hope to come out with designs soon... I also got my contract of appointment for my job. But I'm actually quite worried, cos it says one-year contract... what if I don't get renewed? Well, I hope to do my best, to get a renewal... Overall, I pray that I'll be okay with my job. And I hope you friends pray the same thing too :-)

Hmm... what else... well, not all is well though. I do have a personal problem that's hurting me up inside... But I really wish upon God that I'd have someone to talk to about it... I'm keeping it inside, not really showing to anyone. Because I fear worse things would happen as a result. Am I just scared to voice it out? Or am I just afraid to show my hidden tears... Sometimes I wonder myself. All I know is that at times, my feelings hurt a lot, and I just don't know what to do. Only time will tell, whether God would find me someone I can share my pain...

Hmm... what else... my mum bought me a nice layout book. It gives some ideas on layout design, which would come in handy in my job... Haven't read through yet, will do so soon :-p Had Mushroom Jack at Chilli's. My fave!

Well, I guess that's it for now I guess... Oh yeah, I really thank God for giving me such nice pals to work with, Angi and Val. It's a blessing... They're really helpful, guiding me and such. And of course, they're good friends, especially at a time when I need close friends to be with (Chong and Boon are back in Miri, working... but we do keep in contact) for chatting, work and having fun... And my office collegues are nice too, although I might need some time to get to know them well... :-p

That's it for now, till next time,

PEACE and God Bless,
Aris Tee