Monday, May 16, 2011

Struck

Funny how things turn out. I remember how I used to blog loads, like once a day or even twice at times. Seems like work really took its toll on blogging. Even with a new job and (somewhat) more time in my hands, I still don't write as much as I do. Perhaps it's the 'mood' I need to get into? Nah, I think not. I'm pretty sure I can put what's on my mind into words. Oh look I just did. Wonderful.

Having a blog isn't as personal as how it once was. But yet I'd like it to remain personal. After all that's what blogs are. Thoughts, opinions, memories. It's a way of expressing myself, and I guess it might help one keep sanity. Anyways been trying to keep myself feeling upbeat. I wonder how much of this smile can actually fool people. I mean, don't get me wrong, I'm jolly most of the time, but there really are moments where I feel frustrated and tired. I'm not even sure of the reason. And I'll just put on this mask so that I don't worry anyone.

Work? Well, I seem to be coping relatively alright... still much to learn. There are times I feel like cracking my head due to the stress, yet at others I feel a sense of achievement when I complete a tough task. Writing? I sure seem to miss doing what I like. Covering events, launches or reviews... they were stuff I was passionate about. I admit putting them behind was pretty tough. But not wanting to stop writing was what made me revive this blog. I love doing this. Even if nobody reads, there's a sense of satisfaction in doing something you love. It also keeps my mind off things.

Like there's this adorable girl, well, I dunno what to say. Despite just only getting to know her recently, I feel there's a sense of warmth whenever she's around. Maybe it's just the funny little things she does, the zany replies she gives, or simply her fun personality. She can be all cool at times, yet goofy at others. She ain't perfect, she even says at times that she has a lazy trait or is often like a guy. And boy is she feisty when mad. Honestly I don't mind at all, it adds to her charm. She's real and she doesn't pretend to be someone she's not. She's opinionated, has an rockin' taste in music and she often tries to be independent. I admit I find all those traits of hers rather attractive. And there are also times that she seemed stressed, and I really wish I could take the burden off her back. She makes me happy just by being around, and it would make me happier if I could do the same for her. Sometimes I wish she's open up a lil, but I wouldn't wanna be pushy at the same time. Nothing worse than getting her annoyed instead. Hoping to know her better, cos honestly, its not everyday you find a girl this special.

Ah crap, I'm just typing random stuff here. Maybe I shouldn't have typed all that. Oh gosh >_< And what I've actually typed that much? I was gonna have my reviews for Fast Five and Thor up but I just couldn't find the momentum. Hopefully it'll come to me soon. But it sure felt good to let out stuff in text again for once, in a blog entry, like how things used to be. Ah man I need to get my lose weight & get fit plan up and running. Ah shit I'm actually starting to blabber again. But I'm serious about my plan. Gonna make it work yo~

Aites, gonna go surf youtube or surf some shit like Cracked.

PEACE & God Bless,
Aris Tee

1 comment:

Esoteric-X said...

Hi....

Dropping by to read your blog.

Keep writing, love the honesty expressed here.

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