Crash and Burn

Crash and Burn
Things haven't been so good lately... been tryin to keep things off my mind... in vain. Well, watched The Bodyguard on TV the other day. Yeah, old movie, watched it numerous times, but I still find it a real classic... a tale of love that just can't be... and there's Whitney's really awesome yet sad version of "I Will Always Love You"...

If I should stay,
I would only be in your way.
So I'll go, but I know
I'll think of you ev'ry step of the way.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
You, my darling you. Hmm.

Bittersweet memories
that is all I'm taking with me.
So, goodbye. Please, don't cry.
We both know I'm not what you, you need.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.

I hope life treats you kind
And I hope you have all you've dreamed of.
And I wish to you, joy and happiness.
But above all this, I wish you love.

And I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I will always love you.
I, I will always love you.

You, darling, I love you.
Ooh, I'll always, I'll always love you.

And the following day I heard Clay Aiken singing his version of "Without You"... simple lyrics, but message well said...

No I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes

You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

No I can't forget tomorrow
When I think of all my sorrow
When I had you there
But then I let you go
And now it's only fair
That I should let you know
What you should know

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give anymore
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Well I can't forget this evening
Or your face as you were leaving
But I guess that's just the way
The story goes
You always smile but in your eyes
Your sorrow shows
Yes it shows

I can't live
If living is without you
I can't live
I can't give any more
I can't live
If living is without you
I can't give
I can't give anymore

Yeah I know... I should be moving on instead of letting such songs affect me (dun get me wrong, I've always loved those songs, it's just the timing... and If you haven't, you'd better give them a listen...), but it's just so hard to do. She has taken the next step with her guy, and honestly I'm happy for her. If it makes her happy then I should be happy for her... even if it hurts me so much in the long run. Why? Because I love her... perhaps more than she'll ever know. But does it matter now? It's part of life... perhaps we just were never meant to be... I'd be lying if I say I never hoped that things would turn around in the end... hard as it may be, it's time to move on, and perhaps all these events are meant to make me do so... I just want her to be happy.

But I still wonder, how... oh how... can time ever mend this soul who has crashed and burned?

PEACE & God Bless,
Aris

*Filled with Emptiness*

*Filled with Emptiness*
Sometimes you just feel like the whole world is against you... it feels like the skies are gonna fall upon you. I don't understand why I must go through all this... at 1st I thought, nah, must be one of those days, the problem is it just obviously isn't, and I'm gonna feel like this for quite some time... all the confusion and all the mess... why... just why? :(

PEACE and God Bless,
Aris

The A1GP Entry

Haven't got the chance to post my entry on the A1GP... mostly due to being busy, and recently falling sick too. Anyways, despite one week late, here's The A1GP Entry... Be warned that there's gonna be a lot of pics... well, not all that there is, as they'll be posted in the Photos section later...

The A1GP Entry
I invited Jill along for the A1GP... got free tickets from the company, seats at the main grandstand. Just thought that it'd be a wonderful experience. Jill agreed, and on race day itself, lil Myn asked if she could come along too. Well I told her she can if her parents are ok with it. So soon enough she hopped into the car and we set off to Sepang. Received an sms from her sis asking to take care of her. Of course I'll take care of her Fifi... she's like a sister to me :)



We dropped by McD's drive-thru at Puchong while on the way. Jill was very excited to finally see a drive-thru. Hee hee... When we arrived there there were so many cars... goodness... all the lots were full... we had to park approx. 1-2 kms away, and walked to the grandstand. Found out that the Sprint race was over, so we had to wait for the feature race. And what a long wait it was...


Satria Neo A1 Edition & Savvy Facelift

Mari bawa kompang...

Lovely ladies holding signs of the 25 nations...

Budaya Malaysia...

Tengok apa tue...

"I wonder if..."

Myn taking a look herself...

"Whoa~"

Audi A4 Safety Car

Heavy rain...

Striking a pose...

Smoking car...

Team.Malaysia - Alex Yoong

Team.Ireland

The chopper flew so low...

Hazardous conditions for racing...

Team.Pakistan

Team.Germany (eventual winner) proving too loud for this kid

Myn & Jill

What a crowd it was...

Another group pic...

Adik comel~

Misty...

Satria Neo Symphony

The car parks were full...

The car was parked this way...

After the A1GP, Myn wanted to go to the curve... so we went there, I belanja-ed her a nice Baskin Robbins ice cream and we went around for a lil jalan-jalan... The Curve was all decorated for Christmas. Pretty nice...


Nice decorations...

Wet bazaar...

Soon after that, we had to head back home. Myn has to be back before 7pm. So sent her home and went for dinner with Jill at Jasima. Ordered one of those pizzas... lol... quite nice. After makan and chit chat, we decided to call it a day...

And there you have it, my A1GP 2006 entry...

PEACe and God Bless,
Aris

Tech, Mamak & Speed

Must get up and running... the frequency of my blogging has been rather lagging, mostly due to laziness... but the last week or so has been rather nice, hanging around with friends and also spending time playing NFS:C and also working on online stuff... okay, this is an entry with lots of pics, so sit back and enjoy...

Low Yat and MamakWent to Low Yat with Jill for some window shopping... she has never been there so I figured it would be nice to bring her there. She was a gaming buff herself, so it was quite nice to walk around Low Yat without having to leave behind what you're actually seeing (if you know what I mean)... Had lunch at Mr. Teppanyaki 1st, they haven't exactly been the best Japanese restaurants around (mostly due to much 'Malaysianising' and fusion) but I admit Low Yat's was rather good.


Japanese Chicken Chop, anyone?

California Roll with no roe...

Chicken Teriyaki Bento...

Went to shop around the computer section... I bought a cool plug point that has switches (yeah switches) so that you could choose which point you want to power up. Neat stuff... Also got myself a set of 4R-sized semi-gloss paper. The printouts would look like those on car brochures... Browsed mouses, keyboards, webcams and stopped at the 3D graphics section... Jill asked them for the best unit, and they brought out Asus' ATi Radeon X1950XTX 512MB GDDR4 CROSSFIRE... my goodness, what a card that was... it was HUGE, red and freakingly expensive. RM1.8k... phew...


ATi Radeon X1950XTX CROSSFIRE

Then we dropped by the computer casing section, where there were lots and lots of cool (pun intended) casings with lots and lots of colorful lit-up fans... lovely...


Blue-lit fan...

A quad-colored one...

Ok, what I found after that was The Big One... the Raidmax Smilodon. I was struck with awe... it was so cool, with it's wonderfully designed windowed casing and blue-lit fans... and the 3 LED 'blades' up front... it also had clip-type construction and side-hatch doors... a sliding motherboard door and swivel-open hard drive bays... totally awesome... Hope to upgrade one day...


The Raidmax Smilodon

The brochure...

Side-hatch doors...

Various features...

After that we shopped for a couple of CDs and then had to leave fast because I promised my cute lil sis that I'd meet up with her for a drink. Rushed through the KL jam and ended up slightly late. But she was ok of course. Ostro was at her place too... red through his assignment or something... was about some brewery (actually tak faham). Lol...



Rescued a bird which fell into the pond... poor lil fella was injured. It went missing after I set it free... hopefully he's okay... We went Makbul after that and waited for Ivy, but she couldn't join in the end. Just simple chit chat and jokes... had to leave early because I needed to get a haircut and also join the family for a movie (which also tak jadi because we couldn't reach the cineplex in time & they gave away our seats...) So there goes such a busy yet fun day...


Ostroey...

Pre-haircut look...

Jill: Mana duit saya?
Myn: Duit apa?!

Cute lil sis striking a pose in the car...

Tuners... Muscles... Exotics...
Been hooked with Need for Speed : Carbon lately... thanks to some tweaks and tips from Jill, I managed to finally play the game smoothly (well, most of the time). Ok, 1st impressions... the main menu is silky smooth, although the elaborated sparkles, shines, exaggerated animation, etc are sort of unnecessary and might have an impact on the game's performance... the graphics are an improvement over the last Need for Speed, which is good (this is btw, officially Need for Speed 10), but my 3D card seems to not be able to display motion blur, which sux...


Using my favourite Nissan 240SX to win a challenge...

Nice graphics eh? This is not even full setting!

The cutscenes (in full-motion-video) are wonderfully done, and yeah, Nikki (played by Emmanuelle Vaugier) is really cute (although she hates your guts). The game picks off where Need for Speed : Most Wanted ended... you're driving your BMW M3 GTR and eventually get totalled by Cross (Dean McKenzie). Yeah that same idiot cop, but he's so exaggerated that he's funny... You start off from scratch trying to pay off a dept to a friend. Given the choice of a Mazda RX8, vintage Chevrolet Camaro and an Alfa Romeo Brera, my choice was a no-brainer... Took the Alfa, loved it to bits, it handled well, ok with drifting, had lotsa speed... tuned it up a lil, painted it Electric Blue... A neat addition to the Need for Speed franchise are the Crew members like drafters, blockers and scouts. Each one has their own advantages. You and your crew will go and win races, take over territories and defeat the bosses... Oh yeah, I'm still playing! Haha...


Alfa Romeo Brera

Sliding action...

Example of exaggerated animation...

Fitted with sweet OZs

Now that's what I'm talking about...

Sweet bodykit and Electric Blue metallic paint...

NOS action...

"I believe I can fly~"

This is what happens when you ram a petrol station...

Menacing car...

Well, I wanted to continue about the A1GP we went the next day, but if I add that, this would be one really long blog entry, I'll save that for tomorrow I guess...

PEACE and God Bless,
Aris